Yesterday

Hmmmm, yesterday was less than stellar. Dinner was fine, went home and had a SlimFast (after spending an hour or so trying to figure out how the electricity in the downstairs of our new house worked). Sat myself on the sofa for a mammoth West Wing session and started to feel very peckish, so had an apple. An hour later, still peckish, so I grab a yoghurt - t'is only small and good for a stop-gap. An hour later, still hungry and I'm mentally scanning the kitchen for something to eat. Decide to resist and make myself a cup of hot chocolate to take my mind off of food. Half an hour later, still hungry. Mentally scanning kitchen again.

Target aquired.

I could have a bowl of cereal, I think.

At the point I entertain the notion, it's already too late. I was feeling weak before coming up with the idea, and now I'm doomed. So I have a bowl, purposely choosing a small bowl, so that I don't have too much.

A nanosecond of guilt as I finish up the delicious bowl.

I could have another one, I think.

Damn. Foiled again. I have a second bowl.

This time the guilt is bigger and mentally I'm weighing up the good I've achieved all day with the indiscretion of the evening. Am I still up? Probably. I probably haven't undone the good work, yet. But it's a close run thing - and I almost certainly haven't lost any weight. Damn.

So, step one in beating the enemy is knowing the enemy. Why did I struggle?

Theory 1: I was on my own. I'm awful on my own. Not much I can do about that one though.

Theory 2: I was watching telly on the sofa. Mentally I associate lazy TV viewing with eating, that's something that needs to be undone. I'll be wiser the next time.

Theory 3: I was feeling annoyed because I couldn't fix the electricity issue we were having - and we all know how I cheer myself up. Need to find a better way of cheering myself up.

Theory 4: I onl had breakfast cereal because there was sugar around to have on top of the cereal. No sugar, no cereal. I'll get B to hide the sugar. Result.

Anyways, today is going well. No sweetener at work, so had to have sugar in my coffee, but had SlimFast this morning and have resisted free food brought in by a colleague (including, ironically enough, breakfast cereal).

Today should be fine, I reckon.